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I Am This… I Am That…
by Vincent Cole.
Each
time you have told yourself, "I am this", or "I am that,"
you kept yourself limited. You have conformed to a particular way of thinking
and a particular way of acting in the world. You have restricted yourself to a
certain code of behavior, dictated not by true desire of the heart, but by
outside influences. You have allowed external impressions to determine your
identity, rather than allowing the spiritual force of your True Self to emerge.
When you claim, "I am a man."
"I am a woman."
"I am a Democrat."
"I am a Socialist."
"I am a heterosexual."
"I am a homosexual."
"I am a poet, an artist or a prisoner," then you have limited
yourself. By these and other definitions you've adopted a role in life and made
it your reason for living. It is the ego's quest for personal power, its way of
surviving the challenges on earth. It is how the ego justifies its existence.
Great effort is taken to maintain, protect and defend that image. Any threat to
that identity, real or imagined, becomes a threat to survival.
You then surround yourself with others who fit within these categories and a
group consciousness is formed. This consciousness is the result of the
collective ego forming a safe and familiar environment whose participants agree
to unspoken rules of thought and action. Your sense of self, the range of your
thoughts and actions, are then limited to the standards of a collective ego.
Though this may be an individual's attempt to discover more about its own
personality, an attempt to grow into a new sense of self, it is still driven by
the ego seeking outside validation. Because the ego is threatened by the
illusion of separation, an individual will seek to enhance his or her identity
by joining a particular group, uniting with other individuals who also feel
separate. Together, however, they are no longer alone. United by shared
interests and a mutual outlook on life, an organization is formed to empower the
ego. All groups become organizations. All groups gather and form a collective
ego.
Informal organizations include family relationships, groups of friends,
racial and cultural preferences. Formal organizations include religious,
political, business, or social structures. Yet all groups, no matter how they
are formed, maintain a similar purpose. Each gives the ego a sense of self, a
sense of protection, and an image of being unique.
Unless an organization can present itself as being unique, with the ability
to meet the ego's needs better than any other organization, it will cease to
exist. The collective ego of an organization must claim to offer its
participants something that cannot be found elsewhere. It must offer the
individual ego an identity greater than what other organizations offer.
This is known as the "herding instinct" of ego consciousness. It
expresses itself in the thought "there is safety in numbers. Safety from
what? Safety from those who are not part of the herd, those other organizations,
those outside the family, those of another religion, race, or culture. By
becoming part of a collective ego, the individual seeks protection from the
self-created illusion of danger. United with others who share a similar outlook
on life, the individual ego feels stronger. This strength comes from compatible
egos encouraging a mutual perception of reality. In order to be compatible the
individual ego must conform to the doctrines of the organization.
To insure conformity of thought and action, every organization, formal and
informal, must distinguish itself from other groups. The stricter the
organization, the more dogmatic its outlook, the greater the difference between
"us" and "them." The collective ego uses the illusion of
separation to justify its existence. Those outside the organization are not to
be trusted. They are inferior. They are sinful. They are a threat because they
are not one of us. Without this conflict the collective ego has no purpose.
Opposition strengthens the collective identity of an organization. A
religious institution, therefore, sees a different religion with a different
name for God as a threat. A particular political viewpoint must vanquish
another. In business there must be competition. Anyone outside the family is
less valuable than a blood relation. Those who dress differently are dismissed
as inferior. Sexual preference outside established morals is a threat to
society. Those who disagree with the organization's limited perception of
reality, become ostracized, driven from the family, dismissed as a renegade and
isolated as a traitor.
Within an organization conformity must be tested. Competition is maintained
to insure loyalty to the group. Titles are bestowed, rewards are given to the
worthy, and punishments inflicted on those who falter. In religion it is the
promise of salvation or the punishment of damnation. In business it is financial
reward or termination. In politics it is the illusion of power or failure into
obscurity. Each group becomes an extension of the family with every individual
vying for attention, striving for acknowledgment, fearful of the withdrawal of
love.
An individual ego, fearful of rejection and separation, will conform to
prescribed patterns of conduct in seeking the safety and protection of a
particular organization. Being surrounded by others who act the same, who dress
the same, who are in agreement as to what is right and what is wrong, an
individual begins to believe he or she is not alone. To maintain this sense of
belonging, you must deny who you truly are and keep your True Personality hidden
by suppressing any tendency to be different. You must keep your True Self so
buried that no one may see. This is done out of fear.
Often it is this same fear of being alone which compels a person into a
relationship with another individual. Again, the ego looks outside itself for a
sense of identity, using another individual to supply its needs, to uphold and
enhance the ego's definition of reality. On a deep, emotional level, the ego
interacts with another ego to compliment its own self-image, or to supplement a
lack in abilities.
Yet, no one comes into the world to cater to another's ego. What often
results is a conflict between two egos, each fighting to satisfy its own
desires. Often the experience of love ends in disappointment when an individual
comes to realize that the ego's perception of another was only an illusion; an
example of the ego's inability to see beyond a narrow view of reality. The ego's
focus on the superficial, and blindness to spiritual reality, contradicts the
true beauty of two souls traveling together upon the earth.
Human relationships are complex, rich in meaning, tenacious and delicate. As
the world is still within the stage of ego consciousness, relationships on all
levels are limited in their interactions as the ego can only express a primitive
vibration of love. True love knows no limitations. True love as expressed
through the True Personality acknowledges another soul's journey, shares in
another's discoveries, is enhanced by the differences in experiences and is
supportive of another's struggle to learn.
There is another way to exist in the world. There is a way to rise out of the
entanglements of the ego. There is a way to heal all wounds, to comfort the
broken heart, to find an end to petty struggles. It lies within you. It may have
been forgotten, but it still remains. It is the True Personality, the eternal
self embraced by God, connected to all of creation. It is the Divine light of
existence that can never be extinguished.
The True Personality knows it is more than an image in a mirror, more than
the clothes that adorn the body, more than its occupation on earth. The True
Self does not live by bread alone.
Within your True Self lie your unique gifts. It has within its power a
greater awareness of reality, a greater sense of what it means to be alive on
earth. It can see beyond the limits of time and space. It is light and life
itself.
It does not know fear. It sees beyond the illusion of separation. It can
never be alone. The True Self is a part of God and has all the spiritual forces,
angelic and saintly, as its companions. The True Personality looks lovingly upon
others who travel this earth. It sees individuals as creations of God,
regardless of how they may think, regardless of how they dress, or what form and
color they have chosen for a body.
The True Self sees the common denominator of all of creation. It sees the
beauty and majesty of God's light. How can there be separation?
The True Self is wisdom. There dwells within it knowledge gathered from many
lives and many experiences. It knows the dark and it know the light and it knows
the difference. It knows without doubt that God's light will always be, and the
darkness is already conquered. The increased awareness of the True Personality
is sensitive to any challenges to its spiritual well being. From wisdom gathered
from previous experiences on earth, the power of the True Self is aware of that
which threatens its growth. It has the power to destroy illusion.
You are a spiritual being, a creation of God's love. You possess a great
inheritance. The potential of the human spirit is great. You are capable of
more, so much more.
You have grown from an infant into a child, from childhood you evolved into
an adult, as an adult you continue to learn and grow. With each step your
physical body grew and your personality changed. Life is growth. Life is change.
The next step is to mature beyond the restrictions of ego and allow the True
Personality its expression on earth.
Your sense of identity will change. The way you see reality will be altered.
Relationships will take on a new meaning. You will depart from the collective
consciousness, even if it means standing alone, so you may look within your own
soul and see the beauty of God's creation. By the spiritual power of the True
Personality you will create a new existence. There will still be challenges and
struggles. There will still be lessons to increase knowledge. But, with a
greater awareness and with newfound abilities, you will meet the demands of
earthly existence with a deeper understanding, an inner strength, and a love
that cannot be diminished.
The True Personality is God's glorious moment of creativity in which you
where formed. It is the True Personality, bright and glorious, which will exist
forever when all else has vanished. Though hidden by fear and doubt, though
concealed by ambition and striving, though darkened by sorrow and pain, the True
Self remains untainted.
Look within. Acknowledge you are an expression of God, worthy of life,
generous in love, eternal in nature and creative beyond imagination. Let go of
the ego and its obsessions with the body. Let your spiritual nature protect and
guide you. Let your True Personality emerge. It is the light Jesus spoke of, the
light kept hidden beneath the bushel.
Let it be revealed.
This
article is excerpted from the book "The Next Step in Evolution",
©2000, by Vincent Cole. Reprinted with permission of the author. Published by
Writers Club Press, an imprint of iUniverse.com, Inc. http://www.iuniverse.com
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About the Author
Vincent
Cole is a wandering monk who has been facilitating
prayer and meditation groups, as well as Women Healing Circles for the past 15
years throughout the United States. While on a personal yearlong retreat in the
desert outside Tucson, AZ, Brother Vincent took a collection of channeled
messages given to a small prayer group many years ago, and edited them into the
book "The
Next Step in Evolution -- a personal guide."
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