From early ages, many of us have probably dreamed, fantasized, and painted enchanting pictures on our ceilings of reaching success in our most passionate pursuits. It’s writing for me, fashion design for my cousin, chess master for her son, Yankees’ shortstop for her other son, designer to the stars for my other niece.
Every musician dreams of rock (or Philharmonic) stardom and millions. Every actor dreams of dramatic discovery, constant lead roles, adulation, Oscars, and a mansion. Every writer dreams of bestsellers, big money, movie adaptations, appearances on national TV, and induction into the Kindle Million Club.
Some of us make it. And most of us don’t. Why? Sure, we must work enough, practice enough, pursue enough, and concentrate enough. But another reason is crucial—we must feel we deserve our Dream.
Do You Feel You Don’t Deserve Your Dream?
If you feel you don’t deserve your Dream, no matter how much time and sweat you put in, how many movers and shakers you know, how many “lucky” breaks you have, or how gorgeous (or outrageous) you are, you will torpedo yourself. Louise Hay reminds us, “When we have strong beliefs that we don’t deserve, we have problems doing what we want” (The Power Is Within You).
Despite countless queries and pitches, I did not have any pieces accepted and published for a long, long time. The mounting frustrations forced me, finally, to face my nondeservingness and recognize some of the red lights that kept me gridlocked. Do any apply to you?
- Do you feel a vague sense of guilt when you’re doing what you really want to?
- When you’ve just settled down to create, do you suddenly remember you absolutely must go get the car washed or clean out the refrigerator?
- Right after you’ve carved out the whole afternoon for your project, do you suddenly feel nausea, headaches, dizziness?
Admit these signs of nondeserving. Your shifty unconscious has just dispatched the guilt gestapo to subvert your creativity and stifle your Dream.
Unfortunately, our culture keeps this squad on active duty, especially for women. Mothers are notorious for taking the raggedy heel of the bread, serving everyone else the perfect wedges of pie, and scraping the dregs for their portion. Wives are notorious for putting off their Dreams until their husbands have established their careers, children have grown, elderly parents have been cared for, and church has served its last supper.
As if these societal expectations aren’t enough to keep us trussed for life, many of us stay tied up for fear or guilt of bettering our parents. So we deliberately sabotage our successes.
Beginning to Reverse
To reverse any of these Dream-crushing thoughts and actions, you don’t need thirty years of therapy. You need only realize you have the power to change, first by recognition and then by refusal.
Recognize you’re letting those Dream crushers govern you. Refuse to let the self-denial and guilt gang in, no matter how much they’re pounding on your door and menacing at the windows.
Have you boldly asked yourself what you really do want, what your Dream is? In her irresistible spiritual chick lit odyssey Eat Pray Love, Elizabeth Gilbert had such an epiphany. When she finally dared to ask herself what she really wanted, her answers ranged from a new linen shirt to living in Italy. And she pursued these dreams!
You may need practice in deserving. Start small. You don’t have to go on a shopping fling, travel to faraway locales, or even leave your house. Instead, choose the better piece of toast, take the neater piece of cake, get tickets to the playoffs, order a mile-high pastrami sandwich and don’t share it, give yourself a daily bottle of imported beer, buy that slightly-too-tight pair of jeans (not your grandmother’s overalls). You’ll soon graduate to giving yourself the time, energy, and focus to pursue your Dream.
Dare to Dream
If you’re questioning your deservingness, no need. Your desire to pursue your passion tells you that you unequivocally deserve your Dream. Otherwise, you wouldn’t desire it at all. Dare to believe that all things are working for good in your life, toward your Dream. Give your Dream the energy it deserves.
Following your Dream may mean giving up certain things, very cherished things that you may have hung onto often for years. Like what? Give up thinking about your face (wrinkled), your feet (bony), your stomach (too big), your house (unclean), your garage (a cyclone leftover), your desk (piled high), your finances (lacking), your work (chronically behind), your mate (chronically annoying), your future (scarily unknown).
Give up trying to preserve an often worse enemy than all these: your status quo. The old comfort zone is a fleece we pull around us, with soothing snacks and silly distractions that don’t feed or challenge. We sink into them and away from all but the necessities. And our life dribbles away.
If you’re honest, though, you know that your Dream won’t let you stay in superficial fatal contentment. It prods you with that annoying feeling of dissatisfaction, despite the huge sugar intake or movie marathon. It pokes you with that floating guilt that you know you should be doing something other than binge TV-watching. It threatens depression because you’re not honoring it. It jabs you with what should be welcome darts of discomfort so you don’t stay in that sluggish zone.
Know that your Dreams and deepest desires aren’t flighty, stupid, ridiculous. They are God-given, even implanted in you. Their strength and persistence alone show how intrinsic they are to your very being.
Creativity counselor and spiritual teacher Julia Cameron reminds us, “Our creative dreams and yearnings come from a divine source” (The Artist’s Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity). You know you’ll continue to be restless, unhappy underneath every other good thing, and always on the edge of grumpy, unless you take steps to let your Dream dip its toe into the water and start making waves.
Concentrate on Deserving
How do we rise above all those negative thoughts that pull down our Dreams and feel like spilled glue oozing through our minds? The principles are ancient and lately rediscovered. Abraham, the collective consciousness channeled by Esther Hicks, tells us: “If you want your fortunes to shift, you have to begin telling a different story” (Money and the Law of Attraction: Learning to Attract Health, Wealth and Happiness).
Our old stories, and the different, better ones we create, are so powerful because of four principles. These are “mental conditioning laws” explained by many spiritual teachers. I like the laws of metaphysical teacher U. S. Andersen (Success Cybernetics: Practical Applications of Human Cybernetics):
1. We are what we concentrate on.
If we concentrate on guilt, lost opportunities, and failure, we engender feelings of extreme negativity. If we concentrate on success, feelings of achievement begin to infuse us. We gain a glimmer of hope, a sliver of excitement, a glimpse (can it be!) that what we yearn for really can happen.
2. What we concentrate on grows.
We’ve all had this experience. You wake up grouchy. You snap at your spouse and slap down the dog’s bowl. Then on your way to the second cup of coffee, you hit your head on the kitchen cabinet door, curse, and step on the dog’s tail. The dog yowls, waking the baby, and your spouse yells at you. And you haven’t even gotten dressed for work. You’ve been concentrating on grumpiness. Result? You’ve produced these matchless experiences first thing in the morning.
Equally negative mindsets—of despair, feeling it’s too late, giving up—produce the succession of events, choices, reactions that send our Dreams down the mineshaft. And leave us with flinty handfuls of shale instead of full-blooming flowers.
3. What we concentrate on becomes real.
Our marvelous human mind believes what we tell it, whether it’s in the world we see or the world of our minds. What we tell our minds we come to believe. When we tell ourselves we’re failures, can never finish anything, or will never get what we want, we believe these messages. So, by our very concentration, we attract them into our experience. They become real. This leads to the next principle . . .
4. We always find what we concentrate on.
A well-known axiom declares that things don’t just happen to us; they happen justly. “Justly” means that things happen just as we believe them. Our dire self-fulfilling prophecies have often come about, to our disappointment, dismay, or heartbreak: “I never could . . . ,” “I was afraid that . . . ,” “I knew that . . . .” But when we “know” and keep daydreaming about our success, what it looks like, feels like, and leads to, it begins to show up.
As Andersen also points out, these four mental laws always work, whether we consciously apply them or not. “The greatest danger in your life lies in dwelling on failure. The greatest reward lies in thinking success”.
You may think that reversing negative concentrations takes too much concentration. And determination. And discipline. Yes . . . and not necessarily. Start using these very principles of thought to reverse your thoughts. If you tell yourself it’s hard, of course it will be. If you tell yourself that reversal and replacement of those tentacled thoughts are easy, ...
All you have to do is identify what you want, and then practice the feeling-place of what it will feel like when that happens. There is nothing you cannot be or do or have. You are blessed Beings; you have come forth into this physical environment to create. There is nothing holding you back, other than your own contradictory thought. . . . You are powerful Creators and right on schedule. . . . Just practice that and watch what happens. (Workshop, North Los Angeles, CA, No. 544, March 22, 2003)
Deserve a Spring Shower
If you need a little help to reach this mind- and feeling-state, envision a spring shower. You stand there, face skyward, arms open, the gentle drops blessing you. Each drop is a positive thought, touching your face gently, effortlessly. Are you straining? Condemning yourself for not feeling the rain? Trying? Not likely. All you have to do is stand there, open, enjoy, take it in.
So, like a soft spring shower, imagine your Dream, visualize it, and gently let these words refresh you.
Affirmations for Deservingness
- I deserve to do what I’ve always wanted.
- I was born to deserve what I’ve always wanted.
- I have enough time, money, energy, interest, cooperation from everyone around me to do what I’ve always wanted.
- Doing what I’ve always wanted to do is my natural state.
- Doing what I’ve always wanted to do makes me feel good and keeps me healthy.
- Doing what I’ve always wanted to do blesses me and everyone I meet.
- Doing what I’ve always wanted to do feels wonderful!
You do deserve your Dream. You deserve everything you’ve ever wanted, imagined, and longed for. Your Dream is why you are here. It’s natural, God-inspired, springing from your highest Self. Your main, effortless job is to keep thinking about your Dream, going towards it with the right activities, and accepting your deservingness.
©2016 by Noelle Sterne, Ph.D.
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Noelle Sterne is an author, editor, writing coach, and spiritual counselor. She publishes writing craft articles, spiritual pieces, essays, and fiction in print, online periodicals, and blog sites. Her book Trust Your Life contains examples from her academic editorial practice, writing, and other aspects of life to help readers release regrets, relabel their past, and reach their lifelong yearnings. Her book for doctoral candidates has a forthright spiritual component and deals with often overlooked or ignored but crucial aspects that can seriously prolong their agony: Challenges in Writing Your Dissertation: Coping With the Emotional, Interpersonal, and Spiritual Struggles (September 2015). Excerpts from this book continue to be published in academic magazines and blogs. Visit Noelle's website: www.trustyourlifenow.com