You are a vortex of energy, constantly in motion, propelled by events, sounds, colors, everything with which you have sensory contact. You can begin to feel those energies, if you choose to do so. This individual expanding, contracting, vortex of power is fed by springs and streams unknown to you, and when two or more of you are present, we have a combination of energy fields in motion. This greatly increases the potentiality as well as the complexity of what I wish to emphasize.
One analogy to use in talking about who and what you are is to visualize yourself as a cup or chalice, which is rather how you appear psychically. The cup has a wonderful openness which is filled with a mixture of moving energy. Other people present themselves in exactly the same way, but different essences have difficulty intermingling with each other because of the walls of the chalice.
If, even for a few moments, you could really touch, taste, and feel the elixir of wonder in any other cup, the experience would be so revealing there would be no chance of further separation.
Guilt & You
What then is the major ingredient in the chalice wall that keeps the inner elixir from being accessible? My friends, it will not be a surprise when I tell you it is guilt. Guilt!
In the beginning of your earth plane experience, you had one rule to guide you. It is still the guiding rule — to live harmlessly, to live as best you can so you harm no one.
And out of the original ability to feel and touch what was harmless, you were able, in those moments, to see each other with clarity.
As things happened, various rules and regulations, which you now call religions, began to rise along with various laws. You accumulated a long array of very specific things to juggle in order to be 'good enough', certain kinds of food, certain kinds of behavior, thoughts, actions, emotions, and on and on. So when you were attempting to connect with the God-Self, obstacles were felt, guilt entered, and you became afraid to open up the channel to what you call the Divine High Self of who you are.
The moment guilt came into your awareness, there arose a fear of God. I have told you before, many of you are afraid of God, because the God you have created is such a fearful one. This image is simply a projection from the minds of man and not at all true. Nevertheless, there remains deeply embedded in the cellular remembrance of your whole beingness the idea that, if you don't measure up, you are going to be destroyed, or at best punished by being sent to some dark area, which sounds far worse than being totally annihilated. This middle ground is where you go if you are sort of bad or sort of good, and there you stay until sometime, somehow, something magical happens and you are no longer in such jeopardy, and they release you to something else.
Release Fear & Guilt
My friends, I am doing my best to lighten up a very frightening view of life and God that is embedded in your psyches. Many of you are no longer actively trying to open up your channel to the Divine. There is the fear that if you do, you will find that you are not loved. Please imagine how it must feel inside your consciousness to know there is an almighty, wondrous God, and at the same time know that It could be angry at you. Understand, there is a deep part of you that responds to this belief with fear. Now, given the dilemma, what is the solution?
There are a great many human beings on this earth plane, and you have been told that the greatest friends you have are each other. So we go back to our diagram of relationship. Each time you open your mouth, or use your eyes or your body to connect and make contact with others, you are doing one of two things: adding to the fear and guilt or adding to the joy and light in the other person and in the world. You do not help yourself by dwelling on your own darkness. That is only a way you keep a negative image of yourself before your consciousness. What you have to learn is the necessity of sending clear messages about what you truly want to the Deep Self. Your Deep Self is also an energy vortex, and it is waiting to be quickened in whatever way you choose. It waits in eternal patience for you to turn to it on your own behalf, and when you ask, you must be specific. What exactly is it that you want? Do you want to find out who you really are, what reality really is? Then ask the Deep Self to reveal those Truths!
The lower, separated self believes you are a linear, limited, often ill, often unhappy, poor little worm, walking over the globe in a chaotic pattern, going you know not where, doing you know not what. The lower self pleads with God to be delivered from this life as soon as possible. Each time you open your mouth, you either increase everyone else's belief in their own lower self, or their belief in Truth. So, the greatest help you can give to yourself and others is to constantly remember that you are Light, you are Love, you are exploding creation, limitless, and harmless.
You are all the things you have yearned so much to be. You could not yearn to be those things if you were not already there. Please understand this. What you want to do is build within the wonderful vessel of your beingness the power of your own remembered, unspecified Love, the feeling of Love in motion within you, until you can taste the elixir and feel that it is possible to truly Love all of the createdness. And it comes out of starting now.
There is nothing magical about enlightenment. Nothing! The Light is in there, waiting to explode. The light is out here, waiting to join with what's inside. We have discussed the only thing that stands between them, which is the chalice itself. The inside is filled, and the outside is equally filled, but it is the structure of guilt between that keeps the Light from enlivening you so that It leaves you in a way that is totally beyond speech. It brings a quickening, an aliveness to the totality of everything you do, and it is worth everything to achieve. Begin this day to build your internal power so that you can literally burst through the barrier of guilt and allow yourself to re-experience the connection with the One God.
It is not that you have to be 'good', just stop believing you are 'bad'. You can change that belief by experiencing the wonder of who you are. If you begin every day to sit with your own energy field, remembering the things you truly are, and dare to tell yourself they are true, you will quicken the awareness of the Source so strongly that you will feel It. I mean feel It with a tangibility that will answer all your questions.
Knowing Who You Are
There is a new term used to describe relationships that aren't working. The word is 'dysfunctional' and the phrase is 'coming from a dysfunctional family'. Well, the news is that you all come from dysfunctional families. And I will tell you why. Because any family who doesn't know who they are will provide you with a picture of who you are that is not true. They, out of their own illusory confusion, have projected onto you the same confusion. All families are dysfunctional. You can split it up into any degree of dysfunction you wish, but I see it only one way. You either know who you are, or you don't!
Until the moment you break through the web of guilt, you will not be functioning in some way or another. I mean this with all of the Love that I have. The only thing keeping you from totally knowing who you are is the gridwork of your own belief of who you are. I will tell you again, you are total Love, total Divine Power-activated! You are a symphony of color and sound, past the wildest imaginings of your physical body, which illuminates your mind and heart. That is who you are. Anything short of that is a lie, and I beg you to stop perpetuating the lie.
As your birthright, you have the ability to break through the blockage of guilt and experience yourself totally. You cannot shovel out the darkness. It will take forever.
The best way to fill a room with light is to open the window. Your job is to do it all the time. When someone is saying something to you that is born in illusion, instead of participating in the lie, become very still within, remember and activate the memory of that which you seek. In the face of any of your own dismal thoughts, stop and remember you are part of the Divine. Do not try to be perfect. You are never going to make it. Do you understand?
You cannot be perfect in a physical body because the physical body sees things as separated. But out of the growing power within, you can explode out of the dream of separation into the reality of Oneness.
In a relationship, what you see of a person most of the time is an illusory reflection shining back off the chalice itself, preventing you from seeing into the depths. You are always in relationship, and I am not talking about love affairs. They are only a small part of relationship. I am talking about life, about relating to everyone you see. Every moment of your day, when you are in the presence of another, you have the opportunity to increase your movement toward enlightenment. If you decide to increase your ability to experience Godness within, when you look at the other person, you must remember that they, too, are God. What happens then is you increase your vibration and release 'God' energy into the atmosphere around you.
In that instant, you activate in some measure the other person's own remembrance. You are the mirrors, each for the other. And when you remember that as much as you can, you will be incredibly helpful to each other.
That is why an Enlightened One is helpful. They look at you and start to laugh. Do you really believe that's who you are? Do you really believe in those limitations? Do you really? If they don't, if you have a teacher who scolds you, get a new teacher! Because anyone who does not see that you are God manifesting hasn't had the full experience of enlightenment. So don't be scolded. You have been scolded enough, and you scold yourselves endlessly. If you want a real teacher, please get someone who knows you are playing a game and will reflect back who you truly are.
Being All Right
What you are being asked to give up is what the 'lower' self loves best, which is the desire to be right. This illusory self adores being right, because being right also means being all-right. And being alright makes you feel, for a moment, more secure. So be watchful, because the only question that ever arises when you are dealing with the Vast Self is this, "Are you willing to lay down everything else in order to reflect the truth?" And the truth is the reality of the Light, Love, Power, and total amazement of who you all really are.
Every time you help your brother or sister to see this, you have helped yourself. It cannot be other than that, and so I ask those of you who really want to experience Light in the mind and in the heart to begin in this simple way. Remember! Whatever else is going on, don't forget! And each time you remember, trust that you are building the energy in your body. There is nothing new outside of you that isn't inside, and you build that energy by your own sweet remembrance. Do it now, or do it later, but you will do it, because a deep part of the human consciousness has an incredible longing to be Free.
I often use the word Freedom because it best reflects the feeling of breaking loose from the chains of illusion and soaring into the Vastness. The dropping of the heaviness of earth plane illusion and the knowing of who you are cannot be conveyed by words. I just beg you to do it. The number of moments you build this power will determine the moment of your Freedom. You lift off and out and you are no longer encased. You know — it's done! You know you are God, always have been, could never be anything else, and in that wondrous moment, you know you have everything. The only thing I think worth doing is to build the power so you can know.
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About The Author
Mary-Margaret Moore is a graduate of the Stanford University Graduate School. She began channeling Bartholomew while undergoing hypnosis. Bartholomew is neither masculine nor a person, but a vast, alive, compassionate wise energy field. Dr. John Aiken of Socorro, New Mexico was hypnotizing Mary-Margaret to see if he could find the source of her back problem. Mary-Margaret found herself saying things like “Do you want to know the nature of God? Do you want to know who you really are? Would these questions interest you?” Dr. Aiken’s answer was a very powerful “YES!” For over eighteen years that Something answered amazing and insightful questions from "seekers" all over the globe.
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